Rumahku Syurgaku

I paint my nails bloody red but someone thinks its messy.
Well haniiii, pay for my manicure please. You can join also and I'll berlakon as if you're my gay friend :P

I did go looking for a job and you know those online job application where you have to fill in your details and it gets boring just when you fill in the section about your working experience. I always do it half way and got distracted by youtube or cafe world thanks to Firah and ended up leaving it abandon and forgotten.
But ironically today I search for an apartment. Yes.. where the hell am I gonna get 250K? Nak shopping at Mng preview sale pon fikir satu juta kali.

Apparently I was inspired by a friend's condo in Sentul . Very cozy place. Love, love, love it! Seriously cam resort and the view was whoaaa boleh nampak klcc! But the thing is I want an apartment in Damansara.

You see, I just can't be away from Selangor. Its too awesome. I just realize that I love it here.
So there goes my search for an apartment in Damansara. I found one and it was lovely plus sangat dekat with Curve. Double love it. I love it!
But 250k won't fall out from the sky.
Sigh~

Cari kerja tamau, cari apartment nak. chiipodah!
Slap! Slap! wake up and smell Brownie..
She needs a bath tomorrow morning.

What Heels can make you do

Have you ever felt pushed that you couldn't bother more and all you want to do is pull over your blanket and go back to that dream?

The situation is I do not feel motivated to look for a job while my mum is nagging pushing me to get one in a month or two. Stress kan?

Why I don't feel like searching?
First, I don't know what am I qualified for
Second, I don't like programming. I can't program to save my ass. All my work in UTP is just plastic and lies
Third, I'm enjoying freedom with less cash and not worrying OMG my FYP tak siap lagi, OMG nanti jauh dari Hilman lagi for 6 months and many more OMGs 'I don't want to go back to UTP syndrome'.

Conclusion, I don't want to work yet, I don't want to get married ( you know the malay saying, dah habis belajar duduk rumah tunggu orang masuk meminang je la. which i think is total crap because marriage is not the solution of everything. orang zaman dholu-dholu je cakap lidddat) but sometimes I wish mum stop pressuring me and money grow on trees and most important I wish I know where am I heading because I' m totally blurred lost.

I keep imagining the small cubicle how stuffy it is, people in business suits how boring it is and the same sick routine with no inspiration and excitement when you wake up knowing each day there is something new. I shout for FREEDOM! and a million dollars to start a clothing line in any fashion capital because here, I won't berkembang maju and be fabulous like Kimora Lee Simmons. Oh yes, that is my ultimate dream.

Somehow today, I was inspired to get a job.
I was at KLCC just now window shopping with Firah and I spot a platform heels from Guess which looked uber comfy and super cantik and soft and I fell in love instantly but I was low on cash. So I concluded that I need a job. Plus Firah told me that my dream Channel hand bag is not 12 K but wayyy cheaper. Whoot whoot! Plus I really want to go to UK for a week to shop kasut 3 pound yang cantik bole jatuh hati and bawak tido.

See mum, telling me that you'd sell charlie if I don't get a job does not motivate me to find one.

So, If I want it all, I have to get a job. IMEDDIATELY! so that I'l have more shoes shoes shoes, bags, bags, bags oh Channel! and travel around the world and sewing class so that maybe I can start my own clothing line. excited!

As a start, when I reached home, I on the pc and apply kerja laju2. hehe

Besar kan cita-cita saya?

Raffles College of Design or Petronas?

I always wanted to be a fashion designer.
I have another year to go here and this degree I'm taking is just security for me.

I checked out about Raffles fashion designing course.It took my attention.The subjects.
But I wouldn't know if I am creative enough to enter.

Like I have to design a few pieces with explanation for the interview.

Reading about the course makes me super excited. The subjects are way much more interesting than Java or even DCN.

But 2 years and 3 months? full time student. Now, where do I put Petronas?

What if they don't let me go? I know its safe money.But if I insist to leave Petronas for my risky 'angan2' then I'll have to pay them.. a big amount.

Imagine myself drag to work because of the big pay.
As Firah said, If you don't mind working for money then drag yourself to work. Or go with something you are passionate for.

Owh no.I'm so not gonna do IT work.Forget about all the certs. Thank you for internship. No IT work for me please. This is not me.

I think for this time being I should start designing like I used to and bring out my creative-ness (if it will ever come out again).

Imagine.... all the wonderful things I can do with fabric and figure.